Rabu, 30 September 2020

This is bad!

 I almost forget with my blog. I have never posted something here. My real life really distracts my attention. I have to think many things. Many things have happened on me. 

This blog is still alive. It means that God wants me to write more and more. I have been writing diary. It begins to be my life style. 

Now, I am in Bondowoso. I am a private English teacher. I have resigned from my previous school. There are many reason that I decide to leave the school. Though, it is hard to do. I have to leave my lovely students there. But, I believe they have a better teacher. 

I have lived outside Bondowoso since 2010. It changes my unconscious mind. I meet C class from 2010 up to now. I was in SSC Jember in 2014. I was in Papua in 2015. Then, I was in Malang in 2018. Finally, I wanted to get back to Bondowoso. I did it. But it seems to be a little wrong decision. I should have lived in Malang or I took CLC or SILN after I had finished my PPG study. 

What about my love?

My mind is open now. I meet many people who open my mind. I can see my life from many perspective. I am able to use my critical thinking now. I learn to control my mouth. 

But, it's bad now. I almost forget to upgrade many things. My face, my body, my attitude, my mind, my knowledge and my fashion. I try to look inside deeper than before. 

So, what's next? I need to do something. I have to change many things. How to do that?

The answer is moving, because motionless deadens.

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